Sometimes, i just can’t get enough inspiration to come up with interesting ideas. Yet I force myself to write something because that is something that i have always enjoyed since childhood, but the result is in those cases its usually uninteresting. I always seem to have an urge to write, even if I don’t have something to write. I know it sounds strange maybe, but that’s not too strange. But I guess it must be part of my personality. :)
I just said goodbye to the previous year a day back. Yes, it was a rough year… with all happening. A year which drastically changed my views, life and lots of things. But thank God, i have my character and ethics intact. I know i learned the the facts of life the hard way, but its been very educational, though ugly. And bit by bit, i m trying to get back there… and hopefully things will be good, infact great. I got the realization afterall!! I had been thinking about scribbling my thoughts since long, but sometimes words are hard to come…. and at times i feel lazy as well. :(
There are times when i want to speak about my thoughts, but i am not able to deliver them with words. I get lost inside my mind sometimes and its hard to find the way out. There are so many strange paths of thoughts that doesnt really lead anywhere, and a few evidently are not finished yet. And others are winding hither and thither, up and down, in spirals and loops, in the big maze that my mind is. But it’s not as if I’m bothered by it always. It’s quite nice to escape the reality and enter the inner self sometimes. The only thing important is not to become a slave of dreams, imaginations and surreality.
Today’s been one of those days today when i was made to remember something of the past. A friend for the past couple of days been acting strange and awkward. Reasons, i cant understand. I did try to speak and listen, but, i guess there has been lots of mismatches between our sensibility. I know i am right, but its been one of those days when my hands are tied… in the name of friendship.
So, i am just overfilled with all kinds of thoughts, but words are so scantly. But, I know I’m going to find my way through the maze, so I’m not that worried. At least, not today…
